Thursday, November 29, 2012


It’s just little bits of madness that starts to creep in, inch by inch, into your mind. You don’t even realize it’s there until it’s got you pinned to the floor belly down, squeezing every last ounce of air out of your lungs, but letting you taste the dirt on the floor. But it could take months, maybe even years before it gets to that. So don’t worry, you’ve got time.

Of course, you can’t do anything about it. Nothing you ever try will help you get rid of it, or be able to change the ultimate, pitiable fate that you’re going to meet. No sir, you’re doomed to utter and complete madness. 

It’s never a question of “What should I do?” It’s only “When?”

So what do you do in the mean time? Chill out. Have fun. Do whatever the heck you’ve always wanted to do. Just don’t take too long, or plan too ahead into the future. You know--things you probably won’t have the time to finish before you “descend in the darkness”. Nobody likes having to finish what someone else has started. Unless, of course, it’s something really important. Like a Scotch. NEVER LET A HALF FINISHED SCOTCH GO TO WASTE. 

Try looking at things in a different light. Don’t hang on the things that shouldn’t matter for too long. You’ll just end up getting yourself and everyone else around you down. Why worry about the past when you can worry about the immediate future? That’s all that really matters anyway. Be happy you’ve still got your sanity in place. For now.

Then again if you really, really feel the need to go ahead and do that, please do. You’re free to make your choices after all. Just don’t do it in when everyone else around you just wants to have a good time, relax and just chill the fuck out. Do that shit on your own time, okay sweety?

Anyway, the point is be happy, and let everyone else around be happy too. You do not have anything to worry about at all. Really. Life’s a bitch, yeah. But in the end it doesn’t even matter. I had to fall, to lose it all. But in the end…oh wait. Sorry, wrong thought process. *shuts off Linkin Park part of brain*

Yeah. So. Madness. That’s going to be a pain in the ass. But hey, I hear they’ve got HD TV at the sanatorium. Premier League in full HD. That should make up for it!

Oops, gotta go. The girlfriend’s calling. 

I dunno, there’s something about her I love that’s just so…maddening.

Friday, November 16, 2012

The One

I’m not the one you could put your trust in.
I’m the one who was betrayed.

I’m not the one you could crush.
I’m the one who fought back.

I’m not the one you were supposed to end up with.
I’m the one who finished it.

I’m not the one you could take for granted.
I’m the one who gave you up.

I’m not the one you could tie down.
I’m the one who broke free.

I’m not the one you could have lived with.
I’m the one who rose from the dead.

I’m not the one you could walk over.
I’m the one who walked.

I’m not the one you could keep up with.
I’m the one who led the way.

I’m not the one you could keep captive.
I’m the one who let you go.

I’m not the one you deserved.
I’m the one who made the sacrifice.

I’m not the one you were meant to find.
I’m the one you lost.